month long catch up

So E started school. It is very exciting. He is doing a great job. Of course I am having a bit of a hard time. I feel guilty that E is in school and since I have thrown my identity to the wind, I am finding myself a bit lost. His first two days of school I went and saw three movies. Vicky/Christina/Barcelona (the new woody allen movie), Death Race (I snuck into this one, is there anything more thrilling) and Hellboy II. Then this week when he went to work I was a little paralyzed.
I miss him when he is at school. I wonder while he is doing while I smoke pot and watch crappy movies on HBO OnDemand. Such is our financial situation that I am giving myself an ulcer trying to figure out a way to get a job. The reality suckfest is that I haven't had a real (paying) job since 2004. Then I went back to school, then we moved aross the country, then I worked for like 1 day at a temp agency, then I got pregnant. So when the job application asks for work experience, I just want to sit down and cry.
Is it this hard for every over-educated mom who chose to stay at home with their kid? they are punished when they try to re-enter the work force? And I have lowered my standards quite a bit at this point. I just won't work for below minimum wage, because that is what we are paying for school so we need to break even right?
Other than that, things are either right as rain, or in the absolute shitter.
E is in a massive NO stage. He is impossible. I guess it is the transition from school. He has started biting and whipping his toys. He is getting increasingly sophisticated in his reasoning.
In fact he just threw a die-cast airplane at my back. I look like a battered wife.
The more "me" time I get, the more "me" time I want.