Eff you

Ambivalence occurs in intimate relationships when there is the coexistence of opposing emotions and desires towards the other that create an uncertainty about being in the relationship.

I got one for you...

What is worse than being pregnant, without health insurance?

No really, I am asking...

Trying to keep the sprouts if depression from rooting through self-care. Constant maintenance required. So angry, anger leads to resentment, which leads to shitty behavior (acting out). Childish bullshit.

Girl I get it. Ugh I wish I didn't but I do.
What can I say? You won't always feel like this? And even the prospect that this shitty painful feeling isn't permanent is what keeps me putting one foot in front of the other.
Fake it til you make it.
Concentrate on the things that give you pleasure and joy.

There is beauty here with the pain and maybe one cannot exist without the other. And whatever it is that makes us types so sensitive, well there has to be a reason. I am not sure what yet but the universe is smarter than that, I Have to believe.
Even though I have a sick tape in my head that basically undermines my very existance. I have to fight it. You have value. You are here for a reason. At least wait until your 30's.
God my 20s sucked. And even though on paper my 30s have also sucked some big balls, I feel more comfortable in my skin and feel like I am closer to peace.

While I have a hard time finding reason in my own existence, I have no question in
My mind that you are special and there is no other DA in the universe.

I don't know if that helps or just sounds like a pile of poo.

You gotta keep fighting. For your mom, for yourself, shit, for me,
Just because this is how it is right now does not mean this is what it is always going to be like. That is the only thing that gets me through the bad times. And keep talking about it. Get outside your head.
-Your partner in the good fight.

Every morning or when I get home or whatever, I wonder what is going to be his excuse for being an asshole this time? Allergies, sobriety, AA, work, boy, animals...the newest one, grumpy from quitting smoking since it was making me wretch.